TRAINING! January 23, 2008

I come home from school and I feel like working out. My brother wants to go with me. I say, “sure, come with me.” I say that I want to run 5 miles today and he says “ok.” However, for some reason every time I reach 1.5 miles, my right lung just starts to have shooting pains..I told him this. He tells me to just slow my pace and I should be fine. This is pretty encouraging. We start running at the Y and around 1.5 miles, my lung starts to go psycho. I turn the meter down on the treadmill and every thing goes smoothly. My mind is in perfect condition to run a long distance today. Around 4.5 miles I decide to walk. Pride takes over me and begin to run again at 4.8 miles. Just 2 tenths of a mile to go. I did it. It was awesome. Unfortunately, I can’t walk that well cause my leg muscles hurt so badly. It stinks. I have strectched, but I don’t think I am going to want to walk around tomorrow Sad. I am running a 10k (6.2 miles) in Vicksburg on March 1st. Then, I am doing a half marathon (13 miles) on April 26. I need to keep running.

ugh. January 17, 2008

Ugh. This is how I have felt all day. Not because I am sick, mad, or tired. But, mainly because I have had this twitch/muscle spasm going on on the tip of my eyebrow that radiates throughout my eyelid. I have asked some random people today if they notice because this spasm causes my whole eye to slightly move and you know sorta shake. It’s one of the most annoying things I have ever felt in my entire life. I woke up last night and my eye was just freaking out. It’s so sad. Also, because I woke up so frequently, I got some sparatic sleep. Once again, annoying. School today felt like forever. I knew it would. No tests, nothing to stress over, just stuff to learn.

I really want to learn to love people the way Jesus did. I also want to be surrounded by people that respect me. I know the world is the world and you can’t just expect to be surrounded by amazing christian uplifting people, but can’t I get a little R-E-S-P-E-C-T? ha, I hope you are singing the song now. But for real, I don’t think some of the guys I hang out with give a crap about what I think, and I know they don’t give a crap about what I am sensitive to. We don’t even have to make this about “sensitivity” just saying words. Words do hurt. I don’t like this. I really don’t. They just say junk, cuss words, absurd gestures, etc. Should this be acceptable? Heck no. And I am sick of my friends thinking it’s funny. It’s not. Yes, I do think that on some occasions I find myself laughing, but when directed at me or one of my friends, it just makes me so mad. That’s what they want, me to get angry.

Anger. Something simple that can be made complex. I don’t want to be angry. I do believe in righteous anger, like getting mad at the fact that dumb boys do dumb things, but other stuff. Simple things that I shouldn’t get so mad over, it’s just not healthy. I’ll work on that.

English is still dumb for the people who read my other post about this wonderful subject We have this book report we are doing and reading another book on top of that. I love that class.

Well, not to mislead you or anything, I am a happy person. I did have an alright day, it was just too long. My eye is so annoying, as I am typing, it’s going crazy!!!!! Ah. Someone help me get rid of it. I hope you have had a great day, really.

I want you to move on and live your life, therefore, no more messages about how much I miss you or anything, just encouraging things, like what amazing stuff God will do in your life. I am excited for you. I won’t hold you back.

“May the vision of You be the death of me.”

Vida January 7, 2008

So- as of now I am supposed to have some 300 page book read and I have only read 50 pages. Bummer. I honestly don’t plan to read it at all. It’s a good book though. (well, the first 50 pages) There is lots going on in the life of my church. Youth ministers going and coming, more responsibilities for me and some other people, y mucho mas. The youth minister situation has gone smoothly, it’s just sad to see people go, however it’s also REALLY exciting to have new ideas from someone else. Something really exciting going on is that me and my friend Ashley are now going to be the small group leader of Junior High girls. I love them. We actually just got back from a church trip and I got to spend lots of time with those girls and invest in them. So that’s definitley something I am looking forward to! Yay. I realized how much I have to study to really teach those girls..ok that might have been a dumb statement. But, what if those girls have thousands of questions that I don’t know the answer to? Ha, just some worries of my own.

I go back to school tomorrow–that should be interesting. My last semester! I am so excited.

I also took on another challenge: I am running a half marathon in April. Dang, right now it’s looking pretty tough because I have been having problems with my left leg/shin/knee. But, I will get through it. One thing that encourages me to keep going, besides my faithful God who brings me through everything, is that my friend and I are running with the group that runs to raise money for Leukemia. I think they are called TNT(Team in Training) and one of my really good friend’s mother just got diagnosed with Leukemia recently and the doctor’s always feed negative outcomes to her family. However, God’s will, no matter what happens, will be done. Always brings hope.

I have a bowling match today haha..but really- I hope our team does well.

Life is going good, hope it has for you also.

“The greatest of these is LOVE.”