Fifths Disease. February 19, 2008

That’s it. The answer to my sickness. The reason I though I had Rheumatoid Arthritis, the swelling, the red rash..everything. It’s a disease that commonly occurs in babies, but can occur in young adult/older teens. It’s a virus that mainly causes a red rash(which is on my arms), swelling, and pain in the joints. I’m so glad I know what it is. How to cure it? You just let it go away. No medication, just let it run it’s course. Relieved.

I went to Memphis this weekend with my friend Becca to see my lovely and newly engaged sister. I am so happy for her. Oh my goodness, I can’t stand it.

I don’t really have alot to say this time. I just wanted to let the ones who worried about me to know what’s up. Haha.. really though.

God is so good. I don’t think I have ever experienced Him this closely before ever. I think I am actually maturing so much to where He honestly is what I rely on to find peace and happiness. Why let your friends, or people control your happiness? When I think about how much God loves me and shows me that I am worth dying for, not worth walking away from-that gives me joy. When I think about how much He delights in me and everything that I am and represent-that gives me peace. People are going to (excuse my language) suck. They really will. They will let me down, hurt me, betray me. But my Lord and savior-never will. Ever. And He knows me! More than anyone on this earth. That is amazing. He knows what I can handle and what I can’t. He knows what I need and what is best for me. All of these things–He wants to show you. He wants you to realize how much He can give you. Mmm…I love Him. I like to think about Him and learn more about Him. Joy.

I leave for California this Thursday for my grandmother’s memorial service. I am singing Come Thou Fount in the service. It should be good. I’m excited to see all of my family. 

Another story–my cat came home from the vet and he had his surgery. He looks so gross. Oh my goodness, his leg is disgusting. The doctor said that cats recover very quickly from hip surgery though, so that’s always good.

“Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.” Proverbs 4:23                                                                                 

peace and joy.

Sickk. February 11, 2008

This weekend has been the most ridiculously busy/chaotic weekend of my life. Lets see: I went to the doctor and possibly have rheumatoid arthritis, but I have to go to a specialist to get it confirmed, my cat broke it’s hip, I don’t get sleep at night because I have this cough which very well may be bronchitis, and on top of all of that, my grandmother died.

Let’s start with the arthritis thingie. I woke up one morning (about a week and a half ago) and I could not stand up without helping myself up. Every joint hurt. My knees, my fingers, my wrists, my elbows, all of it. I also had this “rash” type thingie on my arms, it was just red and blotchy. No itching or irritation, just red and blotchy. The next day the rash thing faded, but my fingers were swollen. The pain in my joints lessened, but it was still bad. So, I went to the doctor after school. He said he had no idea what was wrong, but took some blood to do blood work to cancel out some of the things that it could possibly be. Everything came back normal except for my rheumatoid level. They said it was pretty elevated and therefore needed to go see a specialist. Today: no pain in my joints, I went running today, but it was difficult.

Next, my cat broke it’s hip. Must have gotten in a fight, or something. Nuff said.

I can’t stop coughing. It is one of the most annoying things I have ever been through. No coughing medicine helps. NOTHING. Somehow I find a way to wake up in the middle of the night hacking away. Last night I coughed so much that I gagged and ended up throwing up. I’m stressed out. I just want things to be ok.

Lastly, my grandma died. She passed away on Friday. She was my mom’s mom and basically the only grandparent that I was close to. She died while going through dialosis(sp?) because her kidneys failed sometime last year. They said her heart just stopped during one of her sessions. She was ready to go, very ready. She wasn’t able to read(something wrong with her eyes), her husband died like 5 or 6 years ago, and she was just sick and old. I am glad she is free of any pain, but it just stinks that I won’t be able to sit on her couch and just talk to her. Since she lives in Cali, my family is going to fly out feb 20-27, it should be pretty intense. I am also missing a week of school. More and more stress. However, may she rest in peace.

Besides all of this, God and I have been awesome lately. He has just been revealing himself to me through friends and situations. I love Him, He is all I need.

peace be with you.