Esperanza425’s Weblog

Learning how to love and how to live by His example.

In da woods. May 30, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — esperanza425 @ 11:15 pm

This is my team:

Andrew Benefield, Drew Crowell, Louis Rogers, Ryan Reeves, Chase Carter, Mary Holland Doan, Dru Anderson(girl), Me, Jessa Grindell, Bill Blair, and Ben Derrick. As you can see there are 5 guys on the team, 2 male leaders, 1 female leader, and 3 girls. Small and awesome. We love eachother..especially after the awesome camping trip I’m about to tell you about.

I arrive at camp sunday afternoon to find out that I have 30 minutes to get ready to leave on a 4 hour andventure to Alabama to go camping.

We arrive in Sibsy, AL and park in a parking lot on the edge of intensity a.k.a. the woods.(some national forest maybe?) We stop and make our food in the parking lot (around 8 at night) and we eat some rice and chicken. Then we pack up our 40 pound packs–which I will just take a second to describe. You know those huge backpacks you see hikers wearing that sit on their hips and just extend upward? They look ridiculously heavy and intense? Well, we got to use those. The camp provided packs, sleeping bags, and sleeping mats/tents, for everyone..awesome. And they were heavy, since they were sitting on your hips you couldn’t feel all the weight necessarily, but enough to knock you off balance pretty easily :) So–we start hiking. A good mile and half into the pitch black woods. Each of us carrying our flashlights. It was ridiculous. Once we got to the camp site..by way of a creek(which was stinking hard to cross for me), some muddy hills–that I found I slipped on everytime, and steep paths, we set up our tents. In the dark. :) It was hard and entertaining. Once we got to lay down in the tent..it was so hard to fall asleep. Owls hooting, team members snoring, and the thought that bugs were crawling all over you, kept me from falling into a peaceful slumber. Somehow, by God’s grace, I fell asleep. Woke up-oh by the way none of the team had watches on nor cell phones–so we woke up and no one knows what time..and we ate a little grub to get us going. Grub= poptarts and oatmeal. We set out to hike some more.. We got to this place called Wet Bend and decided to stop for some lunch..crackers, sausage, and cheese. :) We decided, by way of the leaders, to have a little chat to get to know one another. To find out our weaknesses, our backgrounds, our strengths. It was awesome. Mainly to see each person and what they derived from. Their family lives, everything. Ben and David talked to us after our talk and spoke about service and love to one another. And how we are part of the “big picture” but we are such a small aspect. Mainly talking about how we have to love and serve eachother..Then our wonderful leaders decided to tell us “alright team..here we go. You have all the resources you need to make it to ‘Easy Bottoms’ to see what cannot be seen.” Go. We stood there dumbfounded and didn’t really know how to start. We realized quickly that our objective was to find our next campsite. So, after much talking and deliberation and prayer, we set out on a trail we had only hoped was the right way. We reached this campsite and something kept telling a few people on our team that it wasn’t right. So, we walked on. We walked for a good mile and a half, into thick thick thick trails. We stopped in this little walkway bc Ben needed to stop and get some water. Then, one of our members asked, “why are we walking” and no one really responded. We all just kinded mumbled to ourselves thinking of the best possible solution. At this point, I was super frustrated. I just wanted one of our leaders to tell us where to go, because our team really had no idea what to do. So, I voiced my opinion and reminded the team, that it’s about loving eachother and serving eachother. Then, out of nowhere, Bill yells(at the top of his lungs) “Hold up wait a minute, put a little love in it!” I just stared. Some chuckled. Then he said “Maybe y’all didn’t hear me, and (even louder, he yelled) Hold up wait a minute put a little love in it!” And like nothing happened our team began to decide whether or not to keep going. Some said they didn’t want to regret not seeing what was ahead and some were tired and wanted to go back. Finally I said, “why would Bill just yell that randomly at the top of his lungs? It’s not about where we go, it’s how we go about doing that. It’s about being a team and loving eachother as brothers and sisters in Christ.” So the leaders left to have a team meeting..and we stood in a circle as a team, and prayed. Prayed that God would give us direction. Prayed for unity. Etc..After their meeting, we told them that we wanted to go back to the other campsite and that we had seen what couldn’t be seen: our love and service to eachother. And Bill said, “Team, you have made it to ‘Easy Bottoms’.” So we hiked back and on our way, there was thunder. I was like, “please God, no.” Then more thunder and lightening. Our leaders told us to start running. And we did. We ran until we got to the campsite and put up our tents faster than I can even imagine. Had the tarp up to sit under and put our packs under and then, the rain came. And it didn’t stop. 11 hours of thunder, lightening, and heavy sheets of rain. I haven’t really been this scared..ever. As I layed in my tent I was terrified that a tree would be struck and hit one of the tents set up..you know all the negative things. Then, God spoke to me, through what Bill talked about earlier. The verse when Jesus says “Oh you of little faith, why are you afraid?” (paraphrase) and He was like saying, Jenny, what can you be afraid of when you have Me? It was calming. I fell asleep, woke up to ridiculously loud thunder, went back asleep. Woke up to see it still sprinkling. We had to hike back the next day in the crazy mud. The creek that we crossed first, we crossed on rocks..on our way back the water was above our knees. Everyone with chacos on had to stand in the now river, ha, to ferry packs across and to help the tennis shoe people. It was crazy. And fun..the whole trip. Mud, bugs, and God.

The past two days have been orientation/working in the wonderful hot sun trying to prepare for the group coming in on Monday. It’s been a blast so far. Our team is really close and we all love eachother, alot. They guys are amazing, respectful, full of compassion for people, wanting to know how the team is doing. I couldn’t have picked a better team. God has definitely put His hand upon us. The leaders are amazing. Funny, wonderful, godly men, who will do a great job over the summer to lead us. I love it.

I hope you are doing great.

word count: too many.

But really–1227.

I love you.

 

Farewell, For Now (tour) May 25, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — esperanza425 @ 3:37 am

I’m leaving for camp. I’ll let all of you know how it’s going as much as I can.

I’ll miss you guys.

I love you.

You are CHERISHED by a King.

 

Do you know how to get to da top? May 22, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — esperanza425 @ 3:45 am

I had fun these past 3 days. Spent them with some pretty cool girlzz.

We went to Memphis to go on an adventure and stay with my sister! Woo..first day (really evening) we just chilled, ate..slept [which you will soon find out we did a lot of. who knew memphis was so sleepy?] Then, the next day..we woke up not knowing the crazy-awesome experience that was before us. DA ZOO. We spent a good (almost) 5 hours at this fantastic zoo. Saw all da aminals. There were sooo many. The most unfortunate thing though–the polar bears were no where to be found. Sad. However, we still had loads of fun and guess what?-we were tired. So tired. Later we hung out with da sis and watched a tight movie..A Beautiful Mind..awesome. Love Russell Crowe. (sp?) He is beautiful.

Da next day we went shopping! Woo, we all got some tight stuff..I’m not going to lie. Sammy got a sweet skirt, Bec got some sweet shirts, and I got a sweet dress. Such a good day. We looked for the Peabody Hotel for a while. Then we found it..it really wasn’t that hard. I am just slightly directionally challenged, and I don’t like to admit it. Well, we went to da top and looked out over downtown Memphis..and they got to see where Dave will soon be playing and they will swoon. Ha.

We left our great memories in Memphis [the sleepy town] and headed down to Starkville aka Starkvegas. We got to da apartment and watched a movie A River Runs Through It on the littlest t.v. I have ever seen. The movie was slightly neverending and didn’t have the best plot ever. Brad Pitt was pretty, and I appreciated some of the movie, but mostly I was thinking about how small the t.v. was or how long this plotless movie seemed. I was with some cool girlzz though, so it was alright. The next day, we took Bec to her interview and Sammy and I drove to get food [this is too much detail, I'm sorry] Then, we left Starkville and got home safely. I think that was my senior trip? :) I’m ok with that.

It was a good trip. I love you.

He Loves YOU.

[word count: 375]

Peace.

 

I wish I could tell you all my secrets.. May 18, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — esperanza425 @ 3:53 am

This whole working at camp thing is becoming more and more of a blessing. I need to escape some crazy situations that have unfortunately placed themselves in my life.

I saw Prince Caspian today. I was told to read the book first before going to see it, so I did. And I wish I hadn’t. The movie didn’t do the book justice at all. I liked the movie, but I think I would have enjoyed it more if I wouldn’t have read the book first. The book was tight. C.S. Lewis is tight.

“I been hangin’ around this old town for way, way, way, way too long” Yes. I have..I wish I could leave without being sad..you know, but there are just some people I know I will miss. And some I hope never to see again. Wow-that’s tough. I don’t like to seem that mean, but it’s so true.

I’m going to Memphis tomorrow..ZOO! I’m ready to see Alex, ready to see da zoo. And Will. :)

I’m talking to my Aunt Kandy on the phone right now, pretty interesting..that’s for sure. She can’t come to graduation–crazy.

Got da graduation service tomorrow at the church. Then I leave..for Memphis! I really have nothing to say. Really. And I’m sorry about this.

I love you guys. I’m done with highschool. Dang.

I’m going to miss you guys for shurrre.

 

Bleeding Love? May 15, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — esperanza425 @ 8:37 pm

I don’t know if many of you have heard this song-ha, bc it’s on the radio all the time-but it’s Leona Lewis’ “Bleeding Love”. You know the, “You cut me open and I, I keep bleeding, I keep keep bleeding..” etc. Well, this song is so catchy. I love this girl’s voice. I say she is the next Mariah Carey. Speaking of Mariah, I was reading a People’s magazine in Art I class today and Mariah got married to Nick Cannon! What? From the interview they seem pretty happy. Let’s hope so.

So-One more day. Una dia. Ha! I can’t wait to be done with school. Some people, and by some people I mean, me, landon, shane, trace, rachel, kayleigh, (and more) all got detentions today in our Mythology class and so we went back down to his class after the class was over, got on our knees and begged him to take it away. And he did. He always gives in. No joke. Although, I must admit, I was pretty nervous that I would have detention on the last day of school :) ha, how lame would that be. Good job guys, our begging worked.

I got my car back! Yay! It runs really well now. And I am pumped.

Today was a good day and this post won’t be very long, sorry to those who so eagerly wait upon my typeage. ha.

I like to smell things, but not stuff that stinks. I like to wear chacos, but not make my feet stink. I like pizza, but not the pain it causes my stomach. I love chocolate, but not poop. I love to brush my teeth, but not cavities. I love to buy stuff, but not spending money. (steal it? alright.) I like to be with this one person, but I don’t like it when he is dumb. haha. I like to talk, alot, but not about stupid things. I like Jesus, but I don’t like it when people don’t understand. I like to watch the rain, but I don’t like getting wet. I love to sleep, but I don’t like the dark.

I’m going to update you guys while I am gone for the summer. Hopefully those who care will read it and weep. Ha, not really. I just wanted to say that.

I wish this were funnier than it sounds.

Guess what?

Yes–you are still loved by a King. And He is enthralled by your beauty.

 

This is for you. May 15, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — esperanza425 @ 3:08 am

“It’s the end of the world as we know it..and I feel fine”

That song just popped into my head. That instant..thought I would share. –So life: I’m almost done with my highschool career. Two days. Dos dias. God is still and always good.

I think that I’m definitely not prepared for the summer. I keep putting this “tough” face on saying I won’t miss anyone and that all I want to do is get out. Ok, so half of that is true. But- I will miss alot of people. I think this break is needed though. I want to get right with Him and find myself before college rolls around and other things try to define me. I’m just ready. I have been ready.

I’m really thankful for the group of girls I have in my life right now. I’m excited about our future. All of us. 

This is kinda sad cause I want to think of a really good story, mainly because if I am only going to post every now and then..then it has to be worth it right? Right. Well..update: I’m not getting my macbook until after the summer, which is cool with me, cause I sho won’t need it at camp..And it won’t get lost/broken. However, my car is getting fixed, which I think is awesome.

I’m ready to go the Memphis zoo..and see all da aminals. Yep..aminals. It looks right if you read it fast enough, but hilarious if you read it slow enough. My mom and I went to blockbuster tonight and I swear there were so many movies that were 3 for $20..what a deal! However, my mom-the brilliant person she is-guessed that they were all on sale because everything will eventually be blueray. (sp?) Yep..be careful. Not everything is as awesome as it seems.

“I can’t wait to be at state”-my little jingle that I like to chant randomly. But really though..I can’t wait.

This is probably turning out really long cause I just keep pressing “enter” and it pushes the cursor down so far..but there are so many different topics! Kinda like school for instance: watching a movie in every one of my stinkin’ classes except choir and art. Wow. Why does school exist. Ha–obv takin it too far. Today in english I got my teachers pillow, which she normally uses for her back, but I took it and put it on my desk and went to sleep. It was glorious. I drooled. (sp?) School is dumbbb. I think I really enjoyed it at one point, but now it’s just downright annoying.

[I like brackets] I also really like upbeat music. And not reality tv shows. I really like people, but not secrets. I really like phones, but not texting [lies], I really like reading, but not assigned reading. I really like listening, but not to things I don’t want to hear. I really like being right, but not admitting when I am wrong. I really like singing, but not off key. I really like dancing, but not hoochie. Haha..that one made me laugh. I really like running, but not the burn that goes through my lungs while doing it. I really like a clean room, but not cleaning the room. I really like eating, but not gaining weight. I really like talking, but not hearing my voice. I really like the sun, but not the burn. I like camping, but not the bugs. I like my friends, but not the drugs. [ok, so really that one just ryhmed.] Half true? No one knows. I really like knowing someone read this, but not the pride? Ha. Hubris! 

You are loved. Cherished in fact. By a King.