Sometimes, I wish I could change the way I say things. January 14, 2009

Today was overall a good day. Had one class–philosophy. Such an interesting class, I honestly thought it would be really boring, but it’s thought-provoking and almost fun. I just said that. I could sum it up in one word though: Socrates. haha..which reminds me of my friend, Sammy, cause she said sometimes..”I believe it was Socrates who once said..” and then put in something hilarious. 

When you accept Christ does your overall nature change instantly or is it a process? For me, it’s been one of the longest/hardest processes that I have dealt with. I guess I thought it would be like magic and I would be happier, nicer, etc..but that’s not exactly what happens. I mean, if you are consistent with prayer and digging into His word, then you would be a happier, nicer person. For me, consistency is so tough. I mean, right now I am doing alright with it–maintaining daily time with Him because I’m involved in a study. But I guess I feel that if I didn’t have a study or something to guide me..would I be as adamant about being in the word? 

At the end of today I really regretted how I acted. I was so lame. Handled a situation with a friend in an extremely immature way. I couldn’t let my pride down. It honestly makes me so angry that I had that much pride. At the time I said I was sorry for being stupid, but I don’t know if I meant it. Now-I’m just angry that I couldn’t let it go.

I hope you have a great week. You are cherished by a King. 

P.S. My english teacher called the roll and said “Jennifer Legit” it was the first time someone pronounced my name that way. I just said, I prefer to be called Jenny. Ha..great.

Woah. January 7, 2009

So it’s been like 4 months and some days since I have “blogged”. For that, I feel the need to apologize, but then again don’t. Therefore, I’m sorry to those who actually like to read this? Haha. 

2009..I wonder if one day we will say “party like it’s 2009..” 

A lot has happened since I last wrote..my sis got married, I finished my first semester of college, I ran a half marathon, I went to breakthru, and the last number of the date changed. Let me tell you a little bit about all of these things..

The wedding was great, beautiful, wonderful..all of those things and more. It was in Kiawah Island in South Carolina, absolutely beautiful there. Will, da husband, is great–best brother-in-law that I could ask for. I love that everyone could see that them being together is exactly what God planned, even my dad. 

First semester of college, that was interesting. Had some awesome times with the girlfriends. TI’s “Whatever You Like” is the theme song because we listened to it soooo much. Made some good grades..it feels so good to be back at school. 

The half marathon in Memphis was freakin’ cold. It was below freezing when the race started and when I finished it was in the low 40’s. However, it went well..finished in 2:31, which was good, slower than I wanted to do, but good. There weren’t many fans or bands, but then again it was freezing. 

Breakthru is a trip my church and a few other churches go on every year right after christmastime. This year they divided it into two sessions..one the 27-30th and the second the 30-2nd. I worked both camps, but I was a small group leader the first session. I absolutely loved it..had a mix of 10th and 11th graders..they were wonderful. Made the trip amazing. I pray that God works through them..and in me. this was the theme verse: “If my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray and seek my face, then I will hear from heaven and forgive their sins and restore their land.” 2 Chronicles 7:14. What an amazing verse. I love it. The second session I was on staff..basically cleaning a bunch and getting to interact with the next group. That was an awesome experience too, just to be behind the scenes, but still working on things that God was having me work on. Overall, it was the best breakthru I have been to, ever. God is so good. 

It’s 2009..what do I need to work on? And why is that the first question that comes to my mind when I think of the new year? Well..I need to work on daily seeking His face and what He desires me to do. Also, to be in the word more, learning more about Him and His character. It’s fun to think I can start over..with this new year. Is that really possible? I don’t know, but I do know that God is doing things in me that will change my lifestyle. It’s nothing temporary. 

I have never wanted to be at school so much. I love State..I love being back. Seeing friends that I haven’t seen in almost a month. When I’m here I feel “safe” if that makes sense. I don’t know..I guess I just never feel like things are completely OK when I am home. However, when I am here, it feels right. Like it’s right where I am supposed to be. Good. 

Hey–I hope you have a good week. I pray that you would seek and find His face..that your joy, real joy, may be made complete in Him. 

You are cherished by a King.